but God gives the increase.....

As a pastor you will spend countless hours investing into the lives of people, and for that, i am thankful. I guess the hardest thing i battle though is this... Investing time (an priceless commodity) into people only to seem near helping them, only for them to go to another person, pastor, Christian, what ever and get "rescued just in time by them". To be honest its very very very frustrating. It makes me want to say, "forget it!!!!!!!!" and quit doing it. However, I have been checked by the Holy Spirit (and He is still working on me) that some sow seed, others water BUT GOD GIVES THE INCREASE. In my mind that stinks!!! But in my spirit I know its truth. So, I keep sowing, keep watering and if someone else is in the process of helping (like another pastor, person and or Christian) along their journey, I must learn that it is not about "me and my ministry" its about that person and their walk with Christ. Because through it all, God gives the increase. Just a thought.....

Spontaneous

Remember the doughnut commercial when the baker would get up early every day and say in a depressed way 'its time to make the doughnuts'. Life can get boring if we let it. I want to be more spontaneous. I want to play hookie on a Tuesday morning and play go fishing with my kids. I want to drive a different way to the office. I would love to get up in the middle of the night and take a walk on the river bank. No planned vacation, just go with no agenda. No clock. Just to decide when I get up. You know, know, just to enjoy every moment. Plans are good, and need to be made. Not 'in a box' but made in a fluid, changable kind of way. Even doughnuts can be made in a bunch of ways. Just a thought.....
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Vacation part 2

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Vacation

Me and my family are on vacation in Gulf Shores, Alabama. This has been an awesome and relaxing trip. I am trying to learn to how to relax more. Now I think I'm getting the hang of it. Hahah. I hope that even in the face of Agenda that I can have the discipline to learn how to too take a Sabbath on a normal basis. Hmmm the root of vacation is 'vacate' so I think its ok to even vacate our agendas, don't you? Just a thought.....
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Process

Life is a process not an event. Why do we live from event to event? Vacation to Vacation? Friday to Friday? In my opinion its we don't enjoy process. Its in the process that we are stretched, hurt, turned around, question God and are molded. I truly believe that process is more important than outcome. If not, then we would be able to take a quantum leap into our end. So I kinda see it like this. I find my potential, try to learn in the process so that i will be able to handle the peak. In other words I learn to cry then crawl then walk then run only to learn how to cry again. Process, not an event. Just A Thought.....